Sorry if i don't reply to you when you're talking to me or when i get a change of mood easily.
Don't know what's wrong with me lately.
I'm so sorry.
I really am.

Today don't really have the mood to post.
But maybe i'll just post something short ba.
Got back english results today.
21/30, definately not satisfying.
Not satisfying at all.
Nicholas got 27/30, highest in class and sec 1 cohord.
Then he asked me for my marks and gave me that 'hahaha, so lan' look.
I'm useless. i know.
I can't beat you. i know.
But there's no need to ask me for my score and gave me that winning smile just to make me feel more bad, right?
All hope's already lost for me and nothing's gonna make me improve.
I know that.
But there's no need to rub it in or anything.
Failed my science.
At first okok de.
Wasn't so depressed 'cause i sort of expected it.
But then Ms Chow just had to say that sentence.

Ms Chow/Mrs Toh: Why did you do so badly?
Me: -Shrugs-
Ms Chow/Mrs Toh: Did you study?
Me: Ya
Ms Chow/Mrs Toh: You call this study? You didn't even write anything for this question.
Me: Forgot ma.
Ms Chow/Mrs Toh: Don't lie to me. You didn't study at all, right?
Me: I did!
10 seconds later.
Ms Chow/Mrs Toh: -Gives back paper-

I really did study.
This was the first time i ever studied so hard until i forgot my meals okay.
I just forgot the answer to that certain question and she already concluded that i didn't study.
This isn't fair at all.
Sigh.
Believe it or not, it's her problem.
I can't be bothered with such things anymore.
I know that I'm not fit for school or anything.
I'm only fit for death.
No worries.
I'll be gone before you know it.