Sigh.
Thanks for all those who comforted me today..
I have really no mood to post.
But i'll try to.
Reached school early for once.
Sat with Roysius during assembly since Chenhui is so damn sexist, unlike me.
Glad that he didn't talk as much as he did in class.
Went back to class for silent reading.
Felt so darn sleepy.
Maths was next.
Was told that we're not gonna have any lessons today.
Everybody cheered and Mr Lim looked so paiseh. Haha..
Me, Chenhui and Michelle wanted to cut our neoprints but people kept snatching them from us, which was kind of irrtating?
Went to the office to see if Chenhui's watch was found.
It was.
Found out that that Mr William or whatever was such a cold joker.
Went to the canteen to buy some snacks and brought them to class to eat.
Saw him in the canteen too. Haha<3..
Smsed Norman di in class.
I've seen his true colours.
He's sick. Lol.
Didn't have any lessons during art too.
Listened to songs and also borrowed Roysius' phone to send songs.
He has so many songs luh.
Envy.
Anyway, i'm happy that i finally got some of the songs that i've been looking for.
Thanks Roysius?
Science didn't have any lessons too but it sucked.
'Cher told us our results.
I'm not happy nor am i satisfied.
Not at all.
I don't even know why i even bothered to study in the first place when i know that i'm gonna get sucky results in the end.
Sigh.
Why bother, why bother..
I'm born stupid and nothing's gonna change that.
Nothing.
Sigh.
Moving on to the next lesson..
No HOM today too.
Basically no lessons today.
Don't know why we came to school when we're not gonna have any lessons.
We were told that we had to come back on the 16th of November or something for the stupid 25th anniversary thing.
I think it's around the normal school time?
Totally unfair can.
We also don't want to celebrate the fact that that William Hung is gonna be our new principal luh.
It's just a waste of time.
And what's more is that each class has to put up an item. :l
Our class decided that maybe we're gonna have two different types of performances or auditions or something.
Instrumental and singing.
And the other one is just plain instrumental.
Heard that they're playing Cannon in d?
Found out that Yunqing plays the violin and Michelle Goh plays the harp.
Cool but also kind of scary at the same time. Haha..
Weilun kor playing violin or something?
Cannot imagine.
Instrumental and singing that one i don't know what they wanna do.
I wanna sing in the performance they're putting up 'cause i want to overcome my stage fright.
Seriously i do.
If not no chance to join competitions le.
Yup.
But i don't think that they'll want me in their item?
Nevermind then.
Ending here.
Bye.

I thought that i'd be able to get through today happily.
I guess i was wrong..
I've gotten worse results before but i don't know why i'm so depressed now..
My tears keep on flowing down at times, i'm feeling so useless..
Why did i even bother?
Why did i even care?
I hate giving myself false hopes 'cause the outcome always hurts so much in the end..
I want to stop it but i can't because i'm trying really hard to be optimistic..
Maybe i should really stop trying so hard when i know what's gonna happen later on..
All hope is lost..
I'm feeling really useless and stupid right now..
Why can't i just do well in my exams for once?
I need a shoulder to cry on real badly..
But i don't have one..
I never will..